Random Monday-ness

Welp, I haven't updated on here in a while so I figured it was time.

I have reached the 10 lbs lost mark which was really exciting and I got another manicure as a reward! I'm going to have to come up with something else for 15 lbs to make it a little more exciting. I didn't lose very much this week so that was a little discouraging and we are going camping this weekend which makes me a little nervous. (all the eating drinking and nothing else really). I do have a plan though. I've already purchased some plan friendly food items that will help me stick to it and I'm hoping I can make myself get up and run in the mornings. I'll definitely let you know if that happens.

Camping is definitely one of my all time favorite things that Danny and I do. It really is an amazing opportunity for us to get away from everything and just enjoy each others company and the company of the friends that go with us. We always come home so much more connected and refreshed. It really is GREAT! I wanna go right now! HAHA!

Speaking of getting away from it all....my family has to be one of the more dramatic families I know, but I think everyone feels this way about their families! haha! I think mine is exceptionally crazy because of one individual. Drama seems to follow him. Last night was probably the craziest I have seen things ever get and it truly scared me. I was afraid for peoples safety which is not really a feeling you want when you are with family. Peoples tempers went completely off the reservation and other people who I thought should have stepped up and said something at that moment, just sat there. It was surprising to me honestly and I couldn't stay in that situation. I had to leave. Needless to say, dinner at mom's house was not the same after everything went down. I dont want to go into too much detail because I dont know who reads this at all times, but it was just craziness. I'm going to look a few family members in a completely different light after all of that.

On another note: My bestest just had some surgery. She and I had a bit of a falling out just before it. I dont feel like its been completely resolved which is difficult for me, but I can't be selfish because right now I know she is struggling with the recovery process. I failed as a friend. That is all that can really be said about it. I feel awful about it and I hope she and I can mend that when she gets to feeling better. Please keep her in your prayers or positive thoughts for a speedy recovery.

Another thing I'm bummed about that isn't serious at all...Opening Day. I have gone to opening day at the ballpark every year since I graduated college. This has become somewhat of a tradition for me. I asked dad about it this year (I purchase my tickets so I'm not free-loading) and he basically said he could get a "limited amount of tickets". So does that mean I jsut dont get to purchase one? I LOVE opening day. Really kinda hacks me off that he is being like that. he's an employee, I know he'll get tickets because he does every year and every year I purchase from my dad. GRR! Is this spoiled of me?

zumba and Piyo are tongiht. Lets hope burning some calories can get my mind off the things I can't shut off in my head.

Cardio Kick Boxing

Ok. There are a few things to mention in this week's blog. 1st of all...I skipped my meeting on Sunday. I had a horrible week last week I felt like. The gym was closed due to the ridiculous weather. I tried to work out at home and did on 2 days but it just wasn't the same. I didn't feel like I did my best not to mention that I pretty much ate what I wanted on Friday and Saturday. So, I skipped it due to my swollen eye and bad self esteem.

Now we are back on track. I have worked out the past two days and I'm officially loving it. I'm so glad that I have gotten past the "this sucks" phase of working out. I think they say it takes a month to create a habit. I'm wondering if this is why I felt so crummy last week....because I couldn't work out. Weird!

Last night I tried "Turbo Kick Boxing". Not only does this sound incredibly intimidating to me. I knew I was going to feel like a complete idiot because lets face it, I'm a girl and I most likely punch like one. But, once the music started going...I no longer cared. And everyone else looks stupid too. haha! This has been by far my absolute FAVORITE class. I never thought it would be, but its amazing cardio and you are using every muscle in your body.

I also did Pi-Yo on Monday which was a new experience. Its a combination of Pilates and Yoga. It moves a little faster than yoga but its still very soothing and relaxing to do. Very "Zen" if you will. It was definitely what I needed on Monday after the week I have been having. That is sad to say because it is only Wednesday.

Working out has definitely become my release. I remember a time when I used to run 2x a day and I absolutely loved it. These classes are doing that for me. It gets me off my rear end, out of the house, and I'm doing something good for myself. Its about time! I have been lazy for too long!

Tonight is the Bootcamp Conditioning class which I'm hoping doesn't get cancelled because we just got MORE SNOW. What is up with that? I live in Texas people....we dont get this much snow. Anyway...if the gym is closed then I'll be forced to do my old school Power 90 "Beach Body" video in hopes that I burn some calories.

Just for those that are interested...I dont even know if people read this but the "gym" I go to is really a dance studio with adult fitness classes.

http://www.xd2dance.com/

Shocking News and a 5 Lb Sticker

Ok....This past weekend I had a conversation with one of my nearest and dearest friends. We have definitely grown apart in the past few years but I assume that happens with people who dont live anywhere close to one another. I have learned something about this person that makes me think completely different of them. Something that I dont know how to handle or process. I dont really want to go into a lot of detail but the fact of the matter is that someone I thought I knew so well, handed me probably the most troubling, disturbing news without even a flinch. As if what she was telling me was 100% normal and everyone does this. I couldnt disagree more with her and it absolutely shocked me. That she was so nonchalant. This news has since put me in a very strange mood and has me questioning how I could even be friends with someone like this. This thought makes me very sad, but the fact of the matter is that our lives are so completely different that we rarely find anything in common anymore. She lives in a very small town and all things are done different. Do not misunderstand, I am not making excuses or saying what has been done is by any means ok, but that is simply the fact. Their life will always be significantly different than mine. Its just sad to find things out like this about people. Truly broke my heart.

On a much lighter note.... I got my 5 lb sticker this week in WW. Things are actually working which makes me feel good. I can see my body changing and thats a good feeling. I've been working out so I'm hoping that helps in that process as well. I still have 19 pounds left to go, but I'm feeling really good about it. My "goal jeans" are still in my closet and aren't lose yet, but I know they are on their way.

What to say...

I have a feeling this post is going to mainly be a brain dump. I dont have any real exciting news but I want to try and keep this thing up as much as I can so here we are.

Went to my 3rd WW meeting yesterday and was really excited that I lost 3 pounds. I know that some people may think this is water weight or just a swing of natural happenings...but I'm taking it as a good sign that I'm moving in the right direction. My first goal is to lose 7 lbs and I've already lost 4.2 total. So yay! I'm excited and it is so good to see the numbers going down when I'm really trying to work so hard. I kind of wish I would have taken a before picture so that at the end when I reach my goal I can take an after...not that I would really share that with any of you because YUCK!

Work is good....still trying to figure out what is it exactly that they want me to do.

I must say that I am going to be VERY happy when football season is over. I dont have a love for professional football. I really used to like college football but that was when I was in college. Since then I dont really have an interest. I will always support tech but thats about it. haha!

What else is there.....I got nothing.

Thats enough for now I suppose...until next time! :)

Week One Complete

Ok...do week one of WW is complete and I must say I'm not hating it near as much as I was the first few days. The crazy hunger has subsided a little bit and now I think I'm finally getting used to just eating less. Danny has been amazing as usual and is really doing this with me which is a great help! It would be so hard if I came home to him eating junk and I had to gnaw on some lettuce. haha! Tiff and I went to the grocery store last night and I got plenty of food for the meals I have planned for the week. She's been doing so great too and I'm so proud of her. Sooooooo glad we are doing this together. Its important to have that accountability. I lost 1 pound 2 oz. this week. Thats not a lot but its better than nothing. I have a horrible habit of just maintaining. I can't seem to lose. The hubs and I are going to start working out this week so that will help too I think. Only have one meal out planned for the week so that will help too. Its so hard to eat out and eat healthy. I had lettuce with some cheese on it the other day and that was 10 points. I didn't feel like it was worth it. Id rather cook something at home that will leave me feeling like I actually ate something other than air. My goal is to look like this girl again.

Not that much thinner, but you'll notice the face is a little thinner and the rest of the body is definitely thinner I promise! I dont want to get scary skinny like I did in high school. I just want to get to where I was before I started drinking basically! haha! I want to feel pretty again! Feel good in my skin again. Its a work in progress. Lets see what happens!

STARVING!

You know those commercials where they have "hunger" following you throughout the day. That is what I have felt like for the past week. Hungry! Around breakfast I'm usually pretty good, but after lunch and starting around 3 PM I'm absolutely starving. I have yet to really figure out how to maximize my points so I'm just hungry. Tiffany and Danny have been great about keeping me motivated and not letting me get discouraged by the hunger pains! Danny even ate soup and salad for his bday dinner just so I wouldn't be miserable sitting next to him. Love him.

Farewell 2010...Hello 2011

Ok not only does it feel really weird to type 2011 but it sounds weird too. As I have said in previous posts I was positive by this time in our lives we would be flying to work...kinda wish that one came true because I am seriously not a fan of traffic. ANYWAY....

As a recap of the holidays, they were absolutely amazing! We got to see dad, kyle, stephanie and of course little Izzy on Christmas eve and then spend Christmas day morning with my mom and the afternoon with his parents. We got some great gifts but of course it is more about spending time with the family rather than getting the presents. I enjoyed some much needed days off work during the holidays which was very nice to get to spend some quality time with the hubs and really unwind. New Years was a little uneventful this year unless you count the two giant dogs that stayed the night with us. Brew and Shiner made our home theirs on NYE and Kenzie was mortified. I'm sure she is still mad as us. Danny and I stayed awake till midnight and then I quickly began to fade. This is not abnormal. This leads me to my new years resolutions. I know that you should aim to be a good person all the time and aim to be healthy all the time, but there is something about the beginning of the new year that really just puts a new perspective on things. So here ya go:

1. Worry less....I am a worry wart. Ask any of my friends. I call them sometimes to tell me I'm crazy just to make myself stop worrying. This doesn't always work but I try sometimes. I think this will be beneficial to both myself and my husband. The poor guy has to deal with my ever changing worries and stresses too much and I owe it to him to be happy and a little more carefree!




2. Lose weight: I know it is cliche and everyone says they are going to lose weight or go on a diet for the new year, but this time I am determined. I joined weightwatchers and so far this whole points thing is going well. BUT...we are going out for Danny's bday tonight so this might be the first test. What to eat at a restaurant when all I want are chicken tenders. I'm gonna have to learn to really love salad! haha! I blame the weight gain on numerous things but ultimately it is my own fault. I have started just eating junk. lots of wendy's and pizzas and not working out AT ALL! So, my first step is to get the food under control and then I'll start working out. I'm interested to see what changes that has on me first. 2nd weigh in is on Sunday so I'll let you know.




3: Find a church and actually start attending. Now this one will be slightly difficult because it involves another person. I truly want Danny and I to find a church home and start attending. We both agree that we dont want it to be something we feel like we "Have" to do but something we "want" to do. This is a big difference here. Danny grew up catholic and was forced to go to mass and catholic school and there are a lot of traditions and expectations with that. I grew up baptist with a super baptist mom and dad and we weren't given the option. I do want us to find somewhere we can both agree on, feel happy in, and go on a semi-regular basis. This will become even more important when we start talking about children.