Shocking News and a 5 Lb Sticker

Ok....This past weekend I had a conversation with one of my nearest and dearest friends. We have definitely grown apart in the past few years but I assume that happens with people who dont live anywhere close to one another. I have learned something about this person that makes me think completely different of them. Something that I dont know how to handle or process. I dont really want to go into a lot of detail but the fact of the matter is that someone I thought I knew so well, handed me probably the most troubling, disturbing news without even a flinch. As if what she was telling me was 100% normal and everyone does this. I couldnt disagree more with her and it absolutely shocked me. That she was so nonchalant. This news has since put me in a very strange mood and has me questioning how I could even be friends with someone like this. This thought makes me very sad, but the fact of the matter is that our lives are so completely different that we rarely find anything in common anymore. She lives in a very small town and all things are done different. Do not misunderstand, I am not making excuses or saying what has been done is by any means ok, but that is simply the fact. Their life will always be significantly different than mine. Its just sad to find things out like this about people. Truly broke my heart.

On a much lighter note.... I got my 5 lb sticker this week in WW. Things are actually working which makes me feel good. I can see my body changing and thats a good feeling. I've been working out so I'm hoping that helps in that process as well. I still have 19 pounds left to go, but I'm feeling really good about it. My "goal jeans" are still in my closet and aren't lose yet, but I know they are on their way.

What to say...

I have a feeling this post is going to mainly be a brain dump. I dont have any real exciting news but I want to try and keep this thing up as much as I can so here we are.

Went to my 3rd WW meeting yesterday and was really excited that I lost 3 pounds. I know that some people may think this is water weight or just a swing of natural happenings...but I'm taking it as a good sign that I'm moving in the right direction. My first goal is to lose 7 lbs and I've already lost 4.2 total. So yay! I'm excited and it is so good to see the numbers going down when I'm really trying to work so hard. I kind of wish I would have taken a before picture so that at the end when I reach my goal I can take an after...not that I would really share that with any of you because YUCK!

Work is good....still trying to figure out what is it exactly that they want me to do.

I must say that I am going to be VERY happy when football season is over. I dont have a love for professional football. I really used to like college football but that was when I was in college. Since then I dont really have an interest. I will always support tech but thats about it. haha!

What else is there.....I got nothing.

Thats enough for now I suppose...until next time! :)

Week One Complete

Ok...do week one of WW is complete and I must say I'm not hating it near as much as I was the first few days. The crazy hunger has subsided a little bit and now I think I'm finally getting used to just eating less. Danny has been amazing as usual and is really doing this with me which is a great help! It would be so hard if I came home to him eating junk and I had to gnaw on some lettuce. haha! Tiff and I went to the grocery store last night and I got plenty of food for the meals I have planned for the week. She's been doing so great too and I'm so proud of her. Sooooooo glad we are doing this together. Its important to have that accountability. I lost 1 pound 2 oz. this week. Thats not a lot but its better than nothing. I have a horrible habit of just maintaining. I can't seem to lose. The hubs and I are going to start working out this week so that will help too I think. Only have one meal out planned for the week so that will help too. Its so hard to eat out and eat healthy. I had lettuce with some cheese on it the other day and that was 10 points. I didn't feel like it was worth it. Id rather cook something at home that will leave me feeling like I actually ate something other than air. My goal is to look like this girl again.

Not that much thinner, but you'll notice the face is a little thinner and the rest of the body is definitely thinner I promise! I dont want to get scary skinny like I did in high school. I just want to get to where I was before I started drinking basically! haha! I want to feel pretty again! Feel good in my skin again. Its a work in progress. Lets see what happens!

STARVING!

You know those commercials where they have "hunger" following you throughout the day. That is what I have felt like for the past week. Hungry! Around breakfast I'm usually pretty good, but after lunch and starting around 3 PM I'm absolutely starving. I have yet to really figure out how to maximize my points so I'm just hungry. Tiffany and Danny have been great about keeping me motivated and not letting me get discouraged by the hunger pains! Danny even ate soup and salad for his bday dinner just so I wouldn't be miserable sitting next to him. Love him.

Farewell 2010...Hello 2011

Ok not only does it feel really weird to type 2011 but it sounds weird too. As I have said in previous posts I was positive by this time in our lives we would be flying to work...kinda wish that one came true because I am seriously not a fan of traffic. ANYWAY....

As a recap of the holidays, they were absolutely amazing! We got to see dad, kyle, stephanie and of course little Izzy on Christmas eve and then spend Christmas day morning with my mom and the afternoon with his parents. We got some great gifts but of course it is more about spending time with the family rather than getting the presents. I enjoyed some much needed days off work during the holidays which was very nice to get to spend some quality time with the hubs and really unwind. New Years was a little uneventful this year unless you count the two giant dogs that stayed the night with us. Brew and Shiner made our home theirs on NYE and Kenzie was mortified. I'm sure she is still mad as us. Danny and I stayed awake till midnight and then I quickly began to fade. This is not abnormal. This leads me to my new years resolutions. I know that you should aim to be a good person all the time and aim to be healthy all the time, but there is something about the beginning of the new year that really just puts a new perspective on things. So here ya go:

1. Worry less....I am a worry wart. Ask any of my friends. I call them sometimes to tell me I'm crazy just to make myself stop worrying. This doesn't always work but I try sometimes. I think this will be beneficial to both myself and my husband. The poor guy has to deal with my ever changing worries and stresses too much and I owe it to him to be happy and a little more carefree!




2. Lose weight: I know it is cliche and everyone says they are going to lose weight or go on a diet for the new year, but this time I am determined. I joined weightwatchers and so far this whole points thing is going well. BUT...we are going out for Danny's bday tonight so this might be the first test. What to eat at a restaurant when all I want are chicken tenders. I'm gonna have to learn to really love salad! haha! I blame the weight gain on numerous things but ultimately it is my own fault. I have started just eating junk. lots of wendy's and pizzas and not working out AT ALL! So, my first step is to get the food under control and then I'll start working out. I'm interested to see what changes that has on me first. 2nd weigh in is on Sunday so I'll let you know.




3: Find a church and actually start attending. Now this one will be slightly difficult because it involves another person. I truly want Danny and I to find a church home and start attending. We both agree that we dont want it to be something we feel like we "Have" to do but something we "want" to do. This is a big difference here. Danny grew up catholic and was forced to go to mass and catholic school and there are a lot of traditions and expectations with that. I grew up baptist with a super baptist mom and dad and we weren't given the option. I do want us to find somewhere we can both agree on, feel happy in, and go on a semi-regular basis. This will become even more important when we start talking about children.